“You’ve got to make your own life, one that you love, and you can’t be afraid of the time. Time is shiftable. There are moments of my life that I’d trade sixty years to have back again. That’s the truth. You know the truth when you find it. It’ll come to you like something you’ve known before rather than something you’re learning for the first time.”

Dreams and expectations have the very dark flipside of disappointment, broken dreams. But then again, dreams, they're what sets us apart from being a mere brain and a body.

“I crave your legs intertwined with mine, I crave nothing but you, in the most simplest of ways.”

Jesse: You know, I think that book that I wrote, in a way, was like building something. So that I wouldn't forget the... details of the time that we spent together. You know, like just a reminder that... that once we really did meet! You know, that this was real! That this happened!

Celine: I'm happy you're saying that, because... I mean, I always feel like a freak, because I'm never able to move on like... this! You know. People just have an affair, or even entire relationships... they break up and they forget! They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals! I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with. Because each person have... their own, specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because... It hurts too much! Even getting laid! I actually don't do that... I will miss on the other person the most mundane things. Like I'm obsessed with little things. Maybe I'm crazy, but... when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk, or... ants crossing the road, the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk... Little things. I think it's the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them, that move me, and that I miss, and... will always miss. You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details. Like I remember the way, your beard has a bit of red in it. And how the sun was making it glow, that... that morning, right before you left. I remember that, and... I missed it! I'm really crazy, right?

Y cuando miré por la ventana me di cuenta que el día había oscurecido mucho antes de que el sol se pusiera.

La señal de hoy no se me va a olvidar, el agua de esta tarde apago ese fuego interno y doloroso que me atormentaba. Se que aun me falta mucho, se mas de lo que debería, soy consciente. Pero si hay algo que aun puedo hacer es mirar, mirar de cerca y entender una señal de esas fuerzas que nadie entiende completamente. Yo se que va a pasar, a su debido tiempo.

Confiando en que una tarde,
te acerques y me mires
y te mires al mirarme.

Sigo aquí.

Esperando yo no se que. Con una tormenta adentro que no se cuando se va a salir de control.

Aprender.

Creo ese es el problema. Tengo que cambiar eso, por que claramente no esta saliendo bien. Pero todo bien, tengo experiencia con eso de aprender sin que nadie me enseñe, y hasta cierto punto me atrevo a decir que me volví una experta en cambiarme -como un camaleón, todo por la supervivencia- lo que me da miedo de esto es borrarme a mi misma, mi esencia. Ahorita no estoy segura de muchas cosas, pero si estoy segura de una sola, algo tiene que cambiar. La música se apagó y yo paré en seco frente a una pared.

¿Que tal sí hubiéramos dejado la luz encendida pretendiendo que nunca existió la opción de ser apagada?